Can I Have the Man I Desire?

Dear Lustful,
You are right. It is a bad idea! But Esmeralda is not here to judge your desires, only to answer your questions.
When Esmeralda places your Question before the Oracle she gets a very distinct “No”. Esmeralda hopes you realize this by now but it appears it will never come to pass that you will unite with this man.
And Darling – this is a good thing for you too. You would not feel good about such a liaison in the long run.
You are a lovely young woman with a bright, vivacious personality. You charm everyone you meet. But you have a hidden secret – you are insecure in yourself, and it has affected your choices in the “Men’s Department”. You are not choosing the type of man you truly need.

This person you are asking Esmeralda about is more a little boy than a man. Can you not see that? He may seem exciting but he has nothing to offer you. Be glad you are not his wife – she has an extra child in him! You have another hidden side My Darling – a somewhat self-destructive tendency that you must watch carefully. Relationships like the one you ask about could be your undoing if you are not mindful.
He is going in the wrong direction with his life at the moment, and My Darling – when you fantasize about him, you are going in the wrong direction also. Esmeralda believes you are well aware that this is a bad idea! So listen to that voice within. It is telling you the Truth.
Dear One, you are lonely. That is the main motivation behind these thoughts. He is someone you feel connected to, because he is capable of creating ease and comfort in social situations.
In fact you need a different type of partner altogether. You need someone who is more emotionally mature and steady. You will not find such a person, as Esmeralda sees it, for a few more years yet.
But do not despair! Those years are for learning and growing in self-confidence. It will be time well-spent for you to recognize what you have to offer and to value yourself just as you are. If you can see what’s so good about you – everyone else will see it so much more easily, and you will attract the partner who truly has much to offer you.